i'm falling

hellooo everyone. it has been a pretty bad week for me, especially today :(

actually its more of a bad day then a bad week. bad week is only for the poems stock challenge. didnt really achieve what i wanted to for the week, but i'm pretty optimistic for now still.

oh well today i bowled union bowl. i got third, but i am honestly disappointed and upset. not due to the fact that i got third, but seriously its because my average has been lingering around the 170 plus minus range for a very long time, sometimes dropping way below that. honestly i dunno whats wrong. guess i could blame myself for not attending trainings regularly? but its really damn far to travel from pasir ris to bukit batok for 2 hrs of training you know!

and the next thing concerns a certain individual. i shall not name this individual. just this afternoon u confirmed with me yes you will join and later in the night u just sent a sms with a sorry i cant commit and join anymore. seriously wtf man. i wanted to send you a damn fking sacarstic reply back, but being me, i decided not to be too nasty as i value friendship.

seriously how am i gonna find one more person at so last min to join the comp with us :(

things have not been going really well since school started this month. i have been skipping lectures like anything. i have not attended a single astro lecture. i went to elective lecture and ended up chatting for 2 hrs. i have no mood for school. i procrastinate on job applications. really fml. i should just find somewhere to hide myself in like seriously. or rather i need some spiritual help. i may appear like a happy go lucky person, very jovial in front of my friends, but deep inside i am having an emotional mess! :(

hopefully good things will come soon. sorry for the ranting